Tonight, for the first time in probably decades, I found myself chasing the sunset. I literally turned the car around and aimed it right at the sunset.
I’ve found that being a mom of three littles plus ALL the other responsibilities of being an adult I often feel like I need to take care of everyone, and the daily grind starts to build on my shoulders. And the internal discussion goes something like “but she needs help with her homework, and she needs help getting her lunch made,NAND he needs his diaper changed, and she’s throwing her fifth temper tantrum of the night, and dinner needs to be made, and the dishes need to get I done… How could I possible leave NOW and do what I need today?
But tonight I did. A friend of mine had a gallery a opening tonight and I really wanted to go. It was important for both myself and the artist on a support-your-friend-and-fellow-artist level. So I put on my winter coat (because it’s been raining AND snowing today) and headed out, and had a very nice time.
As I left, this AMAZING sunset was practically screaming at me. I had to pull over to take it in. Then decided to follow it until I hit a dead end. I HAD to get out and just take it in. Beauty. I was seeking beauty, which I often tell myself, write in my art, and even wear on my wrist sometimes. But I was doing it. Had I stayed home, I would not have seen this.
This morning I had been contemplating what my soul was telling me to do next. I have lots of ideas, but they are so scattered, and then it hit me. Like a slap in the face. And yes, it has everything to do with beauty. Then the day goes on and i forgot all about it and fell back into adult mode. I’m sure most of you know what I’m talking about.
This sunset was perfect. Just perfect to recenter me again. So much so that I actually pulled over in a parking lot after chasing the sunset to write this.
So, now I will return to mommy duty and head into the store to pick up diapers and cough drops for the kids, and then off to the studio as a diligent student, and then home to mommy mode again, but now I have this sunset to carry in my soul tonight.
Thank you, Universe. I’m listening.